it's 1:55am,
i tend to make lists when i get stuck so here are the things i know to be true:
- i feel stuck
- i can't tell whether i am growing or not
- i miss performing
- i space out a lot these days
- i wish i was better at using proper tech equipment
- i wish i knew how to use a camera properly
- i wish i wasn't as hesitant as i currently am to start learning more
- i want to step beyond what i know, but i keep enjoying its warmth
- i am very competitive, and i have a hard time admitting it
- this is making my mental health worse
- i wish i wasn't so competitive, i wish i didn't compare myself to everyone so much
- i really want a strawberry cream cheese danish delight right now
- i wish i didn't have to worry about money as much as i do
- i wish i was able to focus on art earlier, i think that's what i like
- i am very worried about the near, and distant future
- i feel okay, and not okay all the time and i hate that
- i wish i knew what i was really good at, i sometimes don't like being a chameleon
- i kind of want to add a comment section to these posts, thoughts?
- i can't recall my favourite thing about today
- i don't feel much these days
- i keep worrying about the same untrue things
- i'm so grateful and i don't want to mess things up
- i "don't" a lot of things
- i don't want people to get worried about me, i just want to put this here