i bought a Chicago Cubs jersey

i bought a Chicago Cubs jersey today

i’ve been tracking the days i am outside

and whether outside was something brave

whether the definition of brave had changed

whether i had changed what it means


i came across a recording of Hà Nội

i was recording the last quarantine sun

after the sun had begun to set

beginning a year of choices i’ll soon know

beginning with knowing that i made the choice


i came across the Chicago Cubs jersey in Hà Nội

i googled which player wears the jersey #1

before finding it at the store

to find it is Clark the Cub

to find that i’ve been in my room these past 3 years